Do your kids have “if only” names?
I love my kids names, but they do, in fact, have “if only” names.
If only Mr. E hadn’t said “OH HELL NO”. If only it worked with our last name. If only someone else in our family hadn’t used it already. If only Mr. E didn’t say “Luke, I am your father” every time he heard the name Luke. If only I lived in L.A. If only I wasn’t so certain about classic, steady, boring names. If only I hadn’t known that weird girl in Junior High. If only Mr. E hadn’t had that very annoying next neighbor. If only I didn’t cringe a little bit every time I pictured telling my mother the name for the first time. If only I were a little more brave or a little more crazy or had smoked a little more pot in college.
You know what I mean.
Eli’s “if only” name is Hopper. I have loved that name from the first moment I thought of it, and at no point did Mr. E EVER consider letting me name that child Hopper, and yet, I’ve really never thought “Damn, I’m so glad I didn’t name this kid Hopper.” I loved it then, I love it now, and in a different time and a different life, I’d have named the kid Hopper.
Katherine’s “If Only” name is her middle name, Willoughby. At the time we thought it was just a little too unusual and as much as I love it, I didn’t want to seem like I was trying really hard to be different, because that’s just not for me. And really, she is SUCH a Katie. (And we call her Dubsie a lot too.) But I still do love the name the Willoughby, and I don’t think I would have regretted it if I’d just gone ahead and gone for it.
Sometimes I wonder if we have another baby if maybe that baby will get the “If Only” name. I’m not even sure what it would be, I think it’s different for every kid, but if that baby does arrive some day down the road (NOT PREGNANT) and his or her name strikes you as a little crazy pants? You will know why.
So now here is where I have to ask because I really want to know – do your kids have “If only?” names, or did you give them the exact names you were set on right from the start, with no looking back?
So erudite, these children of mine:
(That kid is so totally a Hopper.)